Today was a monumental day for me. This morning I sat in a room full of pastors who would vote as to whether or not I should move forward in the ordination process as a United Methodist pastor. It is nothing short of a miracle that this would even be a consideration. That they voted unanimously to advance me forward is a testament to God’s ability to do the impossible.
During my time in the “hot seat” this morning I was asked what my life is like today compared to before, and whether or not I consider going back to my addiction. It is so awesome to be able to say along with Paul that my old self has been crucified with Christ, and it is no longer I that live but Christ in me. Am I perfect? By no means. I still struggle with things like pride and selfishness – I still battle with wanting my way. But by God’s grace even that battle is not the struggle it once was.
Pastor Jeff Colon, President of Pure Life, wrote the following article called, “Can I Really Change?” I recommend it to anyone who stumbled on this blog, whether you are struggling with habitual sin/addiction or know someone who is. I remember a few years ago thinking that it was impossible to change. How wrong I was! The words from one of my favorite hymns are true:
He breaks the power of canceled sin,
He sets the prisoner free;
His blood can make the foulest clean,
His blood availed for me.
This can – and should! – be every person’s testimony. Nothing is impossible with God! You are not destined to live a defeated Christian existence. If God can set this sinner free, God can set anyone free.
Can you really change? YES! Praise be to God!